Family COMMUNion

I'm not gonna tell you 'Cause you're not gonna know I'm not gonna hold you 'Cause then you just can't grow I'm gonna leave you to learn for yourself There's some things that I can't give you Some ways that I can't help I remember being younger All the things I thought I'd know My friends and I? We sang about "the art of letting go." Then? I cared what people thought It trapped me in my life Then?  It seemed the most important things were Grownup, Mother, Wife I'm going to grit my teeth I'm going to brave the pain I may forget to breathe I may again forget I'm sane I'll have to watch the joyride before the sudden stop and when no one else is on your side I'll pray to help you off and when I nurse the wounds that those "reckless foolish" bring and when the pride that ruins breaks down every thing When forgiveness finds you when mercies quench my tears They say...

When I was seven and rocked my dolly I begged and prayed to become your mommy If God would just bring that doll to life I'd be your mom, and I'd be His wife I was sure we were ready to be together I'm your mom and I've loved you forever Notes passed on a school day Saved in dresser drawers Playbills saved from school plays love notes and dried flowers I saved them and I wondered what it is you'd say My teenage self would ponder if you'd share those parts of me one day I struggled with anger, frustration and pride I'd run and I'd bottle my pain up inside I ached with the battle to grow up and be strong I had the hardest time learning it's okay to be wrong I dreamed of your birth; hoped you'd handle things better I'm still your mom and I've loved you forever I grew strong and travelled I saw many things As my life unravelled I tried out my wings I fought hard to see you to know me through your eyes I prayed for...

Brave the sorrow, brave the cold Stave tomorrow's frozen hold Sodden beauty, ice's crystal Winter's duty, evil's fistule Deaden all these dreams Turn what's warm to cold Refract shallow beams Winter's grip is bold Give the life to let it rest trust that Father knows what's best Tears that freeze upon my face bitter journey, coldest place linking all these memories whitened hope from darkest stain bitter chill to ward off enemies No regret to kill cold's pain I'm skating here I'm flailing here Angel warm me with your glow let your light be Truth I know Crying in the interim Nearly silent, standing strong Holding all this winter in Lest I find out I've been wrong Angel help me. Sing your song I've been faithful for so long Perhaps it's in my blatant sin the weakness hidden deep within Do you deprive me of your mercy? You see how hard it's been The pleasure they find when they hurt me?...

I miss you every moment I miss you by the hour penance and atonement my heart a fading flower Salt and pepper softness the callous of your hand I knew that Love would cost this but I still don't understand The throaty softened chuckle that sweet lopsided grin the way you passed your knuckle from my jawline to my chin Memories brief and fleeting The things I choose to hold While I lay here bleeding in the place love's left me, cold Missing, I am missing I've lost my half of me all that time just wishing for what would never be I wish you were stronger I wish I had been brave I'd have held you longer I'd never learn to cave Missing, I am listless Alone and I'm ashamed hurting and I'm driftless Certain I've been framed Please bring back what's broken Please just let me have it I was far too open and now I cannot stand it Missing, I am missing Looking to find me In all the worn...

"For the BROKEN Body" It's in the grimace of his jaw the steel within his eyes its in the slightest flinch I saw whilst noting his demise it's in his open apathy as others hurt and bleed he wears the mark of misery a dam of pain besieged Compared to truth his confidence appears to be a fake he wears his rags as righteousness but all for pity's sake In dreams he rescues maidens In heart, he breaks the curse but fear it leaves him brazen and worry leaves him worse He struggles with reality I fear it leave him cold He'll fight with his mortality  before he's grown old Here, I thought her safely the twinkle in her eye the quiet breaths of laughter the deep contented sigh It seemed that in her age, she'd found a safer place She almost had me comforted. She'd nearly built my case The simplest of moments her loss it dared to show I'd barely chance to notice shame she'd come to know It finds her quiet often It holds her in its clutches the k...

Driven through with blurring seams Pages bound with sodden reams strangely laced with dirty themes All that's golden bravely gleams Body marked and heart that's torn Promise raped, allegiance sworn Fatal wound to all that's born A time to weep a time to mourn Fight against revenge's snare Dine-in love seems meager fare Danger lies near, waiting there Broken heart, raw flesh laid bare Shock you with this scrawny fight Let His love light up the night I know you hate it when I'm right Your bark made dents but not your bite Flagrant Flowing Stagnant Glowing Love forever strong and growing A book I never thought to write Dreamy Notions Murky Oceans Bottomless these strong emotions Autonomous is my respite Razor rip the reddened thread Tears that soak my weary bed Dirtied lace that left me dead Bruise my heel and crush his head Value for the Victory Arms of hope entangle me broken cord that set me free all that I was meant to be City set upon a hill Die to live, i ...

Wrestling October 13, 2010 at 12:14pm Tie it tighter behind her head She always was a fighter make her pay for what she said light her Truth on fire Bind the bonds behind her back make the wrists bleed slowly she'll never run, but she'll fight back she thinks she's strong and holy Mock her while she struggles Kick her while she's down hold the one who stumbles pin him to the ground. I've seen you in my past I've seen you in his eyes I know this cannot last so familiar with your lies Rip the covering, cut the head swarmed by vultures, left for dead never doubt the fire the gold has been refined dragged out of the mire I won't leave you behind Darkness twists the present's grasp all your views are tainted keyhole vision, afraid to ask cowardice inflated. When all has been exerted the countdown has been laid the truth has be...