Family COMMUNion

I  enter this room where I've been before There are no walls just an open door And my chair is empty Your eyes are warm You stand to let me embrace Your form And I always wonder every time I come how it seems so easy when it's been so long how You always want me when I've run from you how You always tell me what I need to do I've brought my baggage but it can't last long. For here with You my strength is gone. The pain I hoped to let You see has vanished as You welcome me. And I open up to let You in but then fall into You again. "It's my good pleasure" I hear You say To answer You before You pray Why'd I come?  I can't remember..... But I want now to stay here forever. The battleground's faded and the chaos is dim I fought thru to get here....to be here with Him And I had these burdens to put on display I hadn't unbagged them He took them away. I wanted to shout, to cry, and to wail to ma

Soooo…it's been a while since I wrote about why this whole thing started.  There's a few reasons.  I've lost some hope.  It feels so difficult to disentangle myself from this life I live. The idea of ever pulling away seems impossible most days, like I'll be stuck in this crazy life of raising kids and working and educating FOREVER.  I've lost some hope in people too.  Anyone that I've talked to…really talked to about this whole idea either doesn't take me seriously or else doesn't really want to seriously attempt it.  In other words, it's fun to talk about but like most things I can expect to be the little red hen and just "do it myself." It seems that's a lot of what I do these days. Lastly, it was my friend Krista's idea to start this blog.  She actually wanted to know more. The great thing about Krista is she knew how to make people feel important because she believed they ALL were.  Everyone who knew her  was so happy to be lov