Family COMMUNion

Are you lonely? Are you like me? Do you find yourself in a hundred conversations every day? Do you see dozens of faces? Smile? Laugh with friends? Share things? Share meals? Drinks? Then, you find yourself in a solitary moment with the defining ache that never goes away these days.  It barely seems to ebb any more. We are together, but we are alone. I'm finding the space around me grows greater.  I'm finding the intimacy in my tiny circle has become miniscule...nearly non-existent.  I fight for it and it bites back at me...like a vicious snake, denying me entrance.  Indeed, when I look for intimacy amongst humans these days, I feel rejection.  Very few want it.  We feel alone. I am alone.  You are alone.  Actually, we are deluded.  Not one of of us is alone.  Not even one. I listen to the children I see every week.  There is at least forty of them on any given week.  I come home to four more every evening. This is what they are saying: "I'm growing up to

Green for the life that I breathe each day, another chance the newness of the things I still experience for the first time the envy of the joys I hope for seemingly fulfilled in others easily, with so little effort Grey for the sky this time of year that reminds me, at a glance; I'd never appreciate the sun if it always chose to shine the steely resolve that's made me strong in struggle and receptive to the benefit of hurt Red Reminds me that without His given mercy I could not do this anymore. Love is not something one can always see but it is my divine joyous mandate to make it so Wounds that bleed will most certainly heal and healing always brings restoration Orange For the sun's rise and set, a glimpse of heaven's open door The cleansing properties of a painful fire that pulls the dross from the gold The fresh and sweet scent of hope and its sweetness brings invigoration Brown Death is imminent but never eternal. We ALL shall live again. I am

"But the Lord came down to look at the city and the tower the people were building. 6 “Look!” he said. “The people are united, and they all speak the same language. After this, nothing they set out to do will be impossible for them!7 Come, let’s go down and confuse the people with different languages. Then they won’t be able to understand each other.”" Genesis 11:5 Have you ever needed someone, anyone to believe in you? Have you ever felt frustrated with the "naysayers"? Have they ever squashed your dream before you could even try? Or even after you tried? Did you give up? I know how you feel. It's happened to me so many times. It held me back for so long and I dare say I've held some back in life (to my shame) myself. I love the story of the Tower of Babel because it's about faith. It's not about our faith in God. It's about His faith in us. We forget sometimes that God believes in us. He knows things about us that we've forgotte

"But the Lord came down to look at the city and the tower the people were building. 6 “Look!” he said. “The people are united, and they all speak the same language. After this, nothing they set out to do will be impossible for them!7 Come, let’s go down and confuse the people with different languages. Then they won’t be able to understand each other.”" Genesis 11:5 Have you ever needed someone, anyone to believe in you? Have you ever felt frustrated with the "naysayers"? Have they ever squashed your dream before you could even try? Or even after you tried? Did you give up? I know how you feel. It's happened to me so many times. It held me back for so long and I dare say I've held some back in life (to my shame) myself. I love the story of the Tower of Babel because it's about faith. It's not about our faith in God. It's about His faith in us. We forget sometimes that God believes in us. He knows things about us that we've forgotte

These are uncertain times we live in Every time the sun rises When the night seeps in I asphyxiate on silence The world balanced precariously on the edge of sanity As the seasons change my body ages my children grow My bones ache with my own solitude I survey this broad perspective Children starve, Young men die Women,  tortured and abused Evil lurking, tempting but leaving me at bay for now

  I've been very busy.  Mostly, busy with; love, dreams, children, adventure and business...pretty much in that order.  You see, I've realized a few things.  One, is that He crafted each of our destinies before our birth.  Our ENTIRE lives here on this planet are spent either fulfilling that destiny or watching him shove chance after chance ,after miracle after obvious miracle, in our faces to get us to recognize what we were made for. What I was made for is not what you were made for but inside of you, you KNOW what you were made for.  You may spend your life trying to put things in that hole but the square pegs will never fit where what was round was made to go.   He keeps doing it. We are afraid, we are doubtful.  We think we are wise and we are foolish. Still, He reminds us over and over. Another point I've realized is that I was made for risk.  There's all this talk of "faith" in the Bible. It's in the Old Testament and it's in the New.  I'

Think of all the reasons I cannot stand alone The weariness that finds me even when I'm home the guilt of feeling greedy the ache that leaves me needy Never pegged me desperate would never beg and plead  my world, each day more temperate they watch me slowly bleed Everything they tell me never did what doesn't with empty words they quell me and I pray for all that wasn't I paint His name on choices and see His face in voices and wonder If I know Him Wonder where He went I'm pliable and spent I'm used and I am taken Refused and I'm forsaken Phased by weak's critique Beat by pride's attack Retreat as though I'm meek And grasp the knife that's in my back I thought we had a deal This part I wouldn't have to feel This was a temporary stage Forever ago You turned the page. Still stuck in the chapter lost in the verse the "happy ever after" is the part we didn&#