Family COMMUNion

Do you know who you are? You're not what they said You're not what you said either Do you know how much we need you? The giftings you posses? The destiny you've been given? Do you get it? Do you know who you are? Do you realize that there's not a single person you know or know of that is a worthless person? You're here because Someone decided You should be

Is there ever a reason to run like your life depends on it? Maybe…if your life does.

Something that is only a feeling Something that leads to healing A pain that tugs me back to where I've been a call to ponder where I was and when The way to remind  I'm not as whole as I thought a hook, a barb that burns each time I'm caught The cause for unexplainable behavior the most likely reason I will waiver The effect of daring to pursue a dream believing things are exactly as they seem And I wrestle with regret…… If there's an explanation it has to be trusting in something less than my Master. I cannot believe that love is ever wasted. I cannot believe that trusting humanity is something I should never do.  I can believe that assuming that anyone can handle my heart but my Savior is a failure that leads to regret. Yet, I find myself believing this very thing…so foolishly, even wistfully , and I always end up in the same place; aching, burning, tossing in the night and hurting in the day and I remind myself why, or maybe H...

Make me a home with your language a haven, a place free of anguish Your far away actions engage me Your chivalrous heart has upstaged me And I'm not afraid and I can't remember the illogical plan or the crazy endeavor I only know the place I'm at now Watching and waiting Wrestling with "how" Ignoring all judgment I know who I am you catch my gaze and turn it to Him And praying for covenant Hoping again and dare to acknowledge the human I am The woman I am when no one else sees Your honesty claims me compels me to please To honor the passion uphold the ambition to honor and cherish and learn sweet submission Pour myself out You pour yourself in And hold me and love me and draw me to Him And making me pray and insisting you'll stay and steadily sweeping my doubts far away A voice unexpected Tender and sweet Laughter that soothes me and fills me with peace Fight through the struggle ...

It's hard for me sometimes to understand why people don't think like me.  I think my greatest weakness as a participant in society is being unable to relate to others perspectives, especially in matters of the heart.  The older I get, the more things seem "cut and dry" to me.  I don't understand the "whys" or the "hows" much of the time but I do understand the precedent.  I understand what God wants versus what we want and why we want it and why He wants something different for us and from us. You see, life is a continuum.  It is not a finite escapade.  We ARE eternal beings. When you view things in a circular fashion, as in; the universe, the world, love, relationship, existence, well you see that we're never out of chances.  Indeed, even if we don't want to take those chances they still present themselves over and over and over again. I want to be specific because one thing I do understand is that sometimes my thought process is har...

I wouldn't I couldn't I'm not No, never I shouldn't Don't ask me Please stop Not ever I gave up I stood back I questioned the end I held out I stood up I backed you my friend And Never, I'd swear I didn't miss you I'm sure we'd not met The lips that wouldn't kiss you The eyes that never wept and peace amidst the fodder and joy that drowns the pain Forever. It's better but never, no never. and tell me how it ends hold me where it hurts the garden your love tends the sweetness of your words withhold all your amnesty for wounds I never caused justice such a travesty bound by human laws and I can't let you ever… but you say; "Oh, no! No! Never." and gently you assuage me My reach for you enrage me And see my hope! Engage me.. in all you claim is Truth You shouldn't Don't dare You will and I'll let you You couldn't Beware of all that w...

No more quiet comfort  No more sweetened words rounded edge of hunger softened pain of hurts He is coming for me. No more standing in the ring while others watch the fray note the blows it brings and try to have their say He is coming for me Turning down the lights Mopping blood up from the floor no more sleepless nights no more knocking at my door but He is coming for me. They won't circle in to hedge the wounded They won't stand up tall to hide my pain They won't fight em off with shields and armor, The weapons they've been given though I've been stripped of mine the battle they still live in  while they insist they're fine is more than they can take with all those wiley blows and so my mind can understand but it is my heart that knows... My Warrior has seen my shame and HE is coming for me He'll ride in with a fervor and rip me from the clutches He'll storm in like the thunder ...